yeah...... i am so happy... : (

symbol doesn mean everything....

just like the act of my face..

my face are just like the symbol that people put on...

use to hide ourself...

wherther sad or even worst....

maybe,it's change....

time might can change everything..
these day i did can feel the different,but never so calm before..i think i could just let it go,maybe is just because i grown up,or maybe i don't appreciate it a lot....
but really,i think i accept it so well,is just change...not the same as before,it use to brought me depress,but now....thinkalways change,just accept it and adapt it...it's ok~~
admit it,use to feel not comfortable with the losing of it...but some say when there's a door close,tats always a window there..look the other side,is maybe a good thing..
im just a ordinary person... i make choice of myself, to be happy...or continue sad...

Am I

is just...sometime i think do i will ever really fall for someone...Am i cold bloody?
i just cant really have someone tat i like or even love....is not like i don't have feeling to the opposite sex,just sometimes i could get really confuse..am i do really like him,or is just some admire feeling...
ya.. i do have some FEELING toward someone recently,but is that really means what i taught? or is it just a temporary crush?
I don't know why...but i do think i have some kind of special "power" , i can stop myself from truly like someone, when i ever start to have some special feeling to a guy,i will just keep sending message to my brain : is just a temporary crush ,is just a temporary crush..... by then, i will just over him quickly...
i also wondering why am i always do this to myself,i am the 1 tat keep saying wan to like someone,wan to have that kind of feeling too just like my friends does...but i am the reason that i could not really into someone else...guess that i am just too afraid of that kind of feeling (like fall in love) ,is new n terrifying to me...
while i typing this,i check the time, and it is 12:12am... never taught i will spend my precious sleeping time to blogging...but this taught just keep flowing over my head : Am i will going to really fall in "love" to someone?

sometimes i taught could just don care,
but thing turns out i cannot stop thinking about ...
i did care so much...

强

我觉得，我自己从来都是坚强的，尽量都不会让自己因为伤心而哭，因为那就显得我懦弱，我懦弱，就不能保护身边的人，保护他们对我来说是一辈子的责任，朋友.家人.我通通都要保护。。我要让自己和身边的人都觉得，我比他们坚强，这样.....我就会有足够的能力，去保护我想保护的人。

每每到了夜深人静，我就会静静地哭泣，哭过了，就会责怪自己，怎么那么差！前边还有很长远的路，更加让人伤心的经历也会接二连三地来，如果因为这件事就哭，以后该怎么过。

所以，总是让自己大气地过日子，傻气地，酱会让自己过得更容易。。

ready......

ok....im going to form 6!!! am i ready??
guess im going form6 is just because im not ready...
there got lot of people ask me : Y? y u want to continue study on form6??
and i didn answer them, because i don know wat my answer would be....
now.... i think i had figure my answer out...
is because when i recall my memory in secondary school life, i realize i do nothing for the most amazing part of my life -- secondary school's life.....

im afraid .... so im always becoming 'good girl' ,but i not proud of this...i want to do something that when im get old , i remind the school life of mine, i will smile n think about how stupid am i doing such a thing, but never regret because im doing tat....cuz i doing my job perfectly, my job as a student,enjoying my school life...

for the last 5 years, i do think i didn have enjoy my school life enough, and now .....for the last two years, i wan to be really enjoy......just do wat im like...cuz i would never get a chance to back to this time.....

想找朋友出来看电影，却发现原来我的朋友是这么的少。。。