强

我觉得，我自己从来都是坚强的，尽量都不会让自己因为伤心而哭，因为那就显得我懦弱，我懦弱，就不能保护身边的人，保护他们对我来说是一辈子的责任，朋友.家人.我通通都要保护。。我要让自己和身边的人都觉得，我比他们坚强，这样.....我就会有足够的能力，去保护我想保护的人。

每每到了夜深人静，我就会静静地哭泣，哭过了，就会责怪自己，怎么那么差！前边还有很长远的路，更加让人伤心的经历也会接二连三地来，如果因为这件事就哭，以后该怎么过。

所以，总是让自己大气地过日子，傻气地，酱会让自己过得更容易。。

ready......

ok....im going to form 6!!! am i ready??
guess im going form6 is just because im not ready...
there got lot of people ask me : Y? y u want to continue study on form6??
and i didn answer them, because i don know wat my answer would be....
now.... i think i had figure my answer out...
is because when i recall my memory in secondary school life, i realize i do nothing for the most amazing part of my life -- secondary school's life.....

im afraid .... so im always becoming 'good girl' ,but i not proud of this...i want to do something that when im get old , i remind the school life of mine, i will smile n think about how stupid am i doing such a thing, but never regret because im doing tat....cuz i doing my job perfectly, my job as a student,enjoying my school life...

for the last 5 years, i do think i didn have enjoy my school life enough, and now .....for the last two years, i wan to be really enjoy......just do wat im like...cuz i would never get a chance to back to this time.....